I recently read Erin Pavlina’s article The Spiritual Consequences of Suicide and it sounded overly simplistic to me. The way she described the spiritual consequences of suicide, the main necessity was rearranging everyone’s lifetime appointment books, with a nod to the possibility of others “suffering terribly” at having been left hanging without all the scheduled contacts.

I have had two close family members commit suicide so I have a decidedly different perspective. A suicide creates far more havoc than some missing connections and contacts, however painful that lack may be.

Particularly traumatic events actually create a geometrical trauma configuration that simultaneously involves the physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual bodies. The nature of such a geometrical trauma configuration is that it cannot be dislodged from one body without at the same time being dislodged from all the other bodies as a single unit.

This surpasses what most healing modalities are able to accomplish. Most healing modalities primarily target one of those four bodies. A few may include one or more of the others as well. Hardly any modalities have the tools to release a geometrical trauma configuration from the four bodies all at the same time. Crystalline Consciousness Technique™ is the only one I know can do this.

As the likely result of suicide is creating multiple geometrical trauma configurations in those left behind, this is no minor karmic consequence for those choosing to commit suicide. The survivors often find themselves struggling with intractable problems which resist all efforts to heal.

In my own case, I had 25 years of nightmares following my mother’s suicide before my healing process managed to eliminate them. And I feel I had the easier time of it compared to my brother who still is spiraling downward from the impact on his life.

A highly sensitive individual, he was seventeen when he found our dad after he died of a heart attack. Seven years later, he found our mother when she shot herself with my brother’s gun. He was both traumatized and guilt ridden as a result.

His lifetime pattern makes no sense unless you postulate that the driving purpose is to maximize his suffering. Then his pattern looks to be utterly successful.

I have had contact with my mother from time to time since her passing. We had been extremely close telepathically before her death, so this should not have been surprising to me. However the first time it happened after her death I found it extremely upsetting.

It did not help matters any that she presented herself in a genderless fashion, which I was in no mood to accept either. As far as I was concerned, my mother was a woman, period. And since she was a dead woman, I was not particularly happy at communicating with her anyway at that time in my life.

She quickly abandoned the genderless presentation, but our communications have not been frequent. Initially she seemed to be in a very white environment which felt similar to a hospital, but that gradually changed over the years. She has a healing process of her own to complete.

I often feel both her and my father show up when my brother is around. They appear to want me to fix their errors with him.

I spent a long time discovering I cannot fix someone else. I cannot live someone else’s purpose for them just because they did not complete it themselves. I can offer a helping hand if someone is actively pursuing their own healing, but otherwise it is a waste of time and energy on my part.

I believe we are responsible for how we use our energies and that we should be putting them where they produce positive results. I finally told both my parents I had not inherited their tasks and that if they felt they had done such a bad job with my brother, it was up to them to fix it, not me.

That did not go over very well with them, but I have had a clearer space around me since then, which has been a most welcome development.

Most of my healing path has required turning my back on the family patterns, which have been horribly distorted and destructive, descending from generation to generation.

My mother was born with a leaky heart valve and not expected to live to adulthood. My grandmother would get angry and yell at her, “Why don’t you die like you are supposed to!”

My mother talked about that a lot in the last six months she was alive. Of course, I am sure my grandmother had her own issues as her mother was not much of a sweetheart either.

I have tried to stop it from cascading down through my daughter and grandchildren. At some point it is necessary to say enough is enough and do something different.

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